im going crazy its really starting to hit me that my best friend is leaving for college im so upset im so happy for her at the same its confusing :/ onee fucking month till my birthday my disease must go away must must go away

i fuckin hate life im so fat i cant stand it like its i seriouslly want to die. i have edema not fat and im waiting for ucla to accept meee god it doesnt take so much time do that i need help its not like i eat enough to gain it or whatever i work off all the calories and i eat basically vegetables and tofu but i do not each ne thing else really omghhh im going to die if no one gets it pays attention to it im desperate it hurts and stretches i hate edema its not worth it id rather die.

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